Monday, October 3, 2011

Hello Everyone! Its been a little while since I have been on.  I have missed everyone! I am trying to catch up on all of your blogs!  I am a week or so from my first fill and oh boy can I tell i need one.  I can pretty much eat alot... not sure if this is normal and I feel super hungry all the time and my bad behaviors have started to creep back on me and I am hating it, I thought I had battled this problem and the band would help but I am really struggling lately. I almost am finding myself slightly deoressed about it.  I know I have a eating disorder, from hiding and sneaking food at a young age to binging and eating as fast as possible.  It is like I dont have control and once I do these things, afterwards I am so mad at myself.  So I say Brooke you can control this you can do this but somehow at that moment when I should stop and reflect and realize I dont need another bite or I dont need to sample my childs leftover honeybun or whatever it may be, I do not have control over my hand and mouth.  It is so very frustrating.  I am just hoping this will get resolved somewhat or at least help once I get a fill.  I know though that I need to take control of this and fight it.  I am going to be sucessful.  My hubby and I came up with a gameplan last night.  #1 To make a meal plan... high in proteins(which Im struggling with) #2 Vitamins Vitamins Vitamins #3 workout blah! And to stick to the plan!:) Wish me luck!! Hope everyone is having a great Monday!

6 comments:

  1. Bandster hell and depression are normal. Hang in there.

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  2. All normal. This is what Bandster Hell is. Your band isn't doing anything until it's adjusted. It's like installing a swimming pool but not filling it with water. Yes, you have a pool but you're not going to be doing any diving in it. Hang in there! It gets better once you start feeling some restriction.

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  3. Remember, this is a process. It takes time to change a life. :) You CAN do it!! You will be successful.

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  4. I'm sadly in the same boat at the current moment. I was doing well after my surgery and now I'm finding myself hungry all of the time. I'm not only hungry but I'm wanting cookies, and pies and garbage. Last night for dinner I ate 2 1/2 cups of food and my surgeon wants me to be at about 1/2 a cup a meal so I'm really hoping my first fill will help that. I don't get my first fill until October 26 so I'm really scared that I'm going to back step and gain some of the weight I have lost back. I'm trying hard for this not to happen but 27 years of eating this way is a hard change to make.

    I wish you the best of luck!

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  5. You can do it!! The fill will definitely help too!

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