Monday, October 3, 2011
Hello Everyone! Its been a little while since I have been on. I have missed everyone! I am trying to catch up on all of your blogs! I am a week or so from my first fill and oh boy can I tell i need one. I can pretty much eat alot... not sure if this is normal and I feel super hungry all the time and my bad behaviors have started to creep back on me and I am hating it, I thought I had battled this problem and the band would help but I am really struggling lately. I almost am finding myself slightly deoressed about it. I know I have a eating disorder, from hiding and sneaking food at a young age to binging and eating as fast as possible. It is like I dont have control and once I do these things, afterwards I am so mad at myself. So I say Brooke you can control this you can do this but somehow at that moment when I should stop and reflect and realize I dont need another bite or I dont need to sample my childs leftover honeybun or whatever it may be, I do not have control over my hand and mouth. It is so very frustrating. I am just hoping this will get resolved somewhat or at least help once I get a fill. I know though that I need to take control of this and fight it. I am going to be sucessful. My hubby and I came up with a gameplan last night. #1 To make a meal plan... high in proteins(which Im struggling with) #2 Vitamins Vitamins Vitamins #3 workout blah! And to stick to the plan!:) Wish me luck!! Hope everyone is having a great Monday!