I am here....plus one! AH!

Not only am I the worst blogger EVER!!! I really haven't been in the mood or can't imagine what to write to you ladies. I also am the worst bandster!! I broke the pregnant rules. Here is a little back story to this. I have always had fertility issues. With both of my boys it took medicine to even think about getting pregnant, and the first one took almost 3 years to even concieve. So, mind you I am down 55 or so puounds. I was on birth control, but was having some issue with what i though was my band. I blogged about on my last post. Which all of the tests (cat scan, scope) all came back normal. So during that point I wasnt taking my pills. In fact I barely ate anything or swallowed anything but warm water. After alot of unfills and a fill later, there I was a week late on my period. Went to the gym which I had been doing reliously, and decided Id take a pee test in the bathroom. There's no way I could be pregnant right!? WRONG!!!! Big Fat Positive staring me in the face. Which is bitter sweet let me tell you because I was able to do this on my own no drugs and yes i will love anopther baby with all my heart but.... here I am already have a 2 1/2 yr old and almost 9 mo old mind you.. and loosing weight with dreams of cute swimsuits and capris and tank tops to wear this summer that you wouldnt buy in the maternity section.... So my emotions have been up and down up and down up and down lately.... Im happy, and this is exciting just not the best timing. I am worried and scared about giving birth with the band, gaining weight back and just everything in general. So I will leave you with that and I really appreciate all your support this far ladies!! I have been reading and keeping up with all of you and you all sound to be doing wonderful!! So I hope to keep in touch through out this un planned part of my journey! xoxo

Almost to onederland and scope time!?

Hello Lovely Ladies!! As you can tell I have been seriously neglecting my blog. I plan to try and change this!! I want to post weekly, this month has been so crazy. Sick children, to not moving which I am pretty happy about!! And christmas... just busy. On the positive my wieght is at an all time low and I hit my goal of 50 lbs down this week. I right now as of this morning weigh in at 203.7:) Pretty excited about it. I want to be under 200 by new years!!! Onderland here I come!!!! On the negative end, which I dont even like to talk about, it gets my anxiety going. I might have to have a scope this week or next. Anyone else have this done? I have been battling heartburn every month since Ive been banded, always the same time of month, the week before my period. I have only had unfills never a fill yet- at 2 cc's, but doing great with my weight so no complaints there. But just recently this month I had what started feeling like heartburn but turned into a burning stabbing radiating pain right under mysternum, that would not go away with anything!! It was the most deabilitating (sp) pain I have ever had. This christmas weekend I had it off and on fri thru sat. So I have really been paying attention to what I eat and etc. seeing if there is any links to why or what would cause it. I told my Dr about it and he thinks it could be possible that its an ulcer, or it could be band related. Im just so nervoues to find out what is going on. But also very anxious because I am terrified of the pain returning. So my anxiety is kinda kicking in. Enough of the negative, lets hope for an ulcer and a quick easy fix. Hope everyone had a great christmas and looking forward to a happy new year!! xoxoxoxoxo

3 month Bandiversary!!!

Hello Ladies!! Sorry I haven't blogged in awhile, life has been hectic! I can't believe that it has been three months already since I was banded. I am down 42 lbs from the day of surgery and 48 pounds from the start of the process. I feel great and have really been committed to going to the gym, I think that has really helped. I am still at 2 cc and feeling pretty satisfied most of the time. I still have afternoons where all I want to do is snack and daydream about food. LOL Hoewever I feel more in control. My goal was to get under 200 lbs by christmas, which is fastly approaching. I am not quite sure I can achieve that but I am definitely goping to give it my best shot. That would mean I would need to drop 14 lbs in 25 days. 3 lbs a week is what I have been averaging, so I have almost 3 weeks so I could maybe get 9 or 10 lbs which would be awesome too. Wish me luck! Hope everyone is doing great!!! xoxo

40 lbs down!!! Woo

Hello my lovely ladies!! This week has been exciting, for a few reasons. First being I stuck to all of my goals w the exception of a few white chocolate evil pretzels at my work today!! Second even with my time of the month I managed to loose!!! Third I joined a gym and have gone every day since! Finally I took a picture for proof this morning:) I started at 255.5 lbs and today I was 215. Something lol I'm just ecstatic!!!

Picture:)

Here's the picture. Mind you it's taken from MySpace angle:) which in turn makes me look 20 lbs lighter:)

Fill or not to Fill

Hello Ladies!! So I have pretty much abandoned my goal of posting more. I am not so sure why it has been so hard for me. I really think it helps me and I love reading all of your blogs but it always seems I get on check up on all of you and what youre doing and then say oh i will post later. LOL So here is my new goal to AT LEAST post once a week. I even missed posting on my 2 month bandiversary!!! I mean come on!!! Im officially down 34 lbs and feel good about it. Not great because I really am not focused on what I need to be doing I could be doing much better and making better choices but after the unfill I had, I seem to be eating more now. It was better after for awhile even felt more in control if that makes sense but now I am not feeling so much of that. But I am hesitant to get a fill because I have still been having heart burn. Its not horrible but its not great either. And it always seems to come early mornings, on an empty stomach. It doesnt make any sense. Im wondering if anyone else has battled with this? My surgeon says I should not have any heartburn at all. So it makes me worried. The paranoid side of me says oh no it could be a band slip (which I doubt cause I have no other side effects) or I worry he will take more out of my band which i definitely dont want. So I am at a loss. I am going to be joining a gym next week and am looking forward into getting somewhat of a routine with my excercise. Anywho, on a positive front a couple weeks ago I went to a bariatric surgery seminar my surgeon puts on monthly and he asked me to come speak/ answer questions. I was really nervous at first but once I got going it was so much fun and really motivating. I will post a pic of that night:) xoxo

WHO NEEDS A FILL???? HOW BOUT A MOVE!

28 LBS!!! It is hard to believe that I have lost the same amount of weight as my 2 year old but it feels amazing. Sorry ladies that I have not posted, it is going to be one of my goals to post daily going forward.

There has been a ton going on. My husband and I are thinking about relocating to Wisconsin for his work and spent last weekend there. It is very pretty, but tring to wrap my mind around starting over and new everything and being away from everything I am used to is very stressfull and hard to think of.

On the band front I have been having a lot of heartburn and was looking forward to my first fill but instead my doctor took out 2.5 cc so now I am left with 2cc and no heartburn, which in the end is a good trade. I have not noticed any extra hunger. I am still losing weight which is also a positive (maybe the stress). I was discouraged but I was told that being that tight is not always the best thing, what counts is feeling full. Heck...I have a the rest of my life for fills! If we move I will also be about 5 hours from my surgeon which is a scary thought...

I hope all of you are doing great, I will be commenting more and back in the full swing of things! XOXO